Feel Like An Idiot!

So Paypal couldn't verify my bank account. Maybe I got the routing number wrong so I'm trying again. Grrr. I feel like a complete moron. And the fees for ebay/paypal, it's no wonder they've been a success! It's rained just a few drops. Big ones, but nothing serious yet. Heavy rain is due tomorrow.

Brother phoned. His legal services plan is useless and I agreed to let him hire a lawyer on our behalf. I don't care if it's $13,000 or a bit more; I just want things to be smooth and correctly handled. He's more annoyed that it'll cost so much than I am. It'll all come from the estate anyway. This tells me a lot about why estate planning is important. If I knew then what I know now I would have been determined to get this handled with Mother before the inevitable arrived. Oh well, it's hindsight. Learn from this, readers! He called the realtor he wants to use to see if he can come this week to scope out the house.

We can pick up Mother's ashes. The plan is to do that tomorrow and begin handing around the death certificates to the ghouls. I'm pleading with the mail demigods the financial help from my uncle arrives today. If it does, I can ship the ebay stuff, pay my bills tomorrow and hopefully send in the insurance claim forms to get things moving for me.

I slept like crap, all manner of things going in my head but that was also not helped by not eating much yesterday. The catbox is scheduled for a change today but I'm not sure I will do it.

I felt a bit better last night thinking about future things, specifically where I'd like to purchase a home and what might be out there. There seem to be some deals in North Vegas. This area seems priced beyond reason. Apartments for over $1600/month rent here, housing needing $100,000 down payment with maybe $3000/month mortgages. The area has nice weather and pretty good crime stats but holy hell, those prices seem unsustainable. There are brand new homes in Vegas, a bit larger than this, available for half the cost. I don't know if I want a house with all those rooms to feel lonely in, however. Duckie can tell me about that but at least he's got lots of relatives in his area. I've much to consider.

I'd like to have the estate settled in time for Mother's birthday this summer. I need to travel to get my uni stuff from storage. I might wait for the 10 yr reunion in June or I might just go, get it resolved and leave that behind. I'll keep my options open but I don't know that I'd have to say to anyone who might appear at the reunion other than 'Hello, who are you?' I still want to visit with the Sydney folk. I hear a bit of rain outside. Brunch is ready. I'm going whole hog for a Lean Cuisine Lasagna. Over 300 calories! Could calm my nerves which could be ok until the mail arrives and will either hit 'panic' or 'melt' (in relief).