Damn Blog!

I had a posting yesterday and it's no where to be seen. Damn it. Anyway, it's Tuesday now.

Yesterday I mowed the lawn and got the painting pretty much wrapped up except on the other side of the car park (driveway). Rain is due tomorrow and it's been clouded and cool all day so I didn't want to risk brushing metal all day. I sprayed the mailbox. It's now silver. I'm not sure I like it that way but we'll see. I dug up some weeds and began removing the lights attached to the block wall.

Well, that turned into a bit of a project. I asked the neighbor for advice because I'm going to completely remove the lighting which hasn't worked in years (if it was ever finished). That lead to digging up wires which began more wires, a junction box, and a pipe with still another wire! And then the other flower box ended up with the same setup. Wires, wires, wires! We tried the voltage meter that was in the garage but we couldn't get it to register any voltage anywhere so it's probably junk. Mother didn't make me buy one. :(

I left a message for Brother to call me. He did. I asked him to bring a voltage meter with him when he's next here. He can't remember if the lights ever worked either but wants to say they did and so do I but we agree that was probably in the late 1970's which would explain why the neighbor doesn't remember them ever working. He moved in during the early 1980's. I have many of Father's drawings and things for the project so I'll see if that can give me clues. With Mother and Father gone I don't know what I'm dealing with. Live wires, not live, where do they all run, etc. I doubt Mother would know actually since she was pregnant with me when the wall was built. Brother was just a toddler too. I have to admit that I've grown to like the wall. I've always thought it was very nice when wet but now that it's been painted again, I'm getting an appreciation of what Father was trying to do. I am thinking that if I own a house I'll will do something like it. Being behind a wall is good for my paranoia too!

I have been working and then eating after I am done working out doors. It seems to have been good for me. Today because it's chilly I had... chili! I wanted to have crackers with it but forgot.

The government wasted no time taking the tax payout for Mother. I'll be fine for May but beyond that things fall into an unknown at this point. There are means and alternatives plus maybe the large policy pay out so I'm not going to be sleeping in a ditch with the kitty come June. At least I don't expect to be.

I've been thinking of moving with my uncle to Tennessee mostly because of the family connection. It's something for me to think about and like every other possibility, it all depends on my means. There's nothing left for me here in CA except the kitty and neighbor and kitty can go with me. Neighbor is only neighbor as long as I'm living here or nearby where I might be inclined to visit. I wouldn't mind be around Brother but SIL doesn't like me and if I'm going to see that family I'll almost have to move in next door or drop in at random times. I'm a bit disappointed about Easter but that's life, eh? Mother's Day is coming in a few weeks. I don't know how we'll deal with that. Maybe Brother will want to go visit Mother and see the new marker which should be in place. Mother's Day was never a big deal around here. She and I treated it about like any other day or we'd go shopping ahead of time and get something she wanted. There's a set of crystal dishes and a ring that were Mother's Day gifts which have been upsetting reminders of circumstance. Still Mother's birthday this summer will be much harder for me. The SIL has a birthday too this summer and Vegas.

I already have set aside something for the SIL which Mother'd planned for Christmas but it was on backorder and with Mother gone, I'll wrap Mother's for the SIL and call that a birthday gift. Vegas will get an email or card I guess. I don' t know if he's back from Hawaii or not. I wish the Duckie or someone were here to keep me sane. I stayed up last night but he wasn't online. And even after that sleep was quite difficult. I didn't drift off until probably 6am. I got up around 1am and went immediately to work on chores.