Bad Mood Today

It's Friday. Again the rules have stayed consistent... when you are waiting to be *paid* the pace moves at a comatose snail's pace. When you have a payment to make, there is no slack just harassment! It is evil! :/

I completely screwed up. Mother would've brained me with her purse for not ensuring my own needs were put first! *sigh* I was not good on schedule. Made error of expecting more help. Stupid, stupid, stupid!

I ended up counting my change today. Lots of change too!

I feel sick but I know it is the stress and heat. And I need to food as well.

I put the moulding in Father's room last night so that room is done except for emptying and cleaning the floor? Did a bit or wallboard and final piece of moulding in kitchen. Other moulding put in earlier this week for kitchen is painted.

Need to call to cancel estate payment on Monday because funds won't be free by then. Very annoying! I am upset with self. It is very hard for self to manage so many things without unplugging and recharging self.

Must make calls.

Ok, I cancelled the payment. And then I made another call. Then another. Then I called again and reschedule payment.

This is all very psychotic! Mail brought a refunded payment for what I know was a legitimate purchase. Mother bought music on iTunes a week or so before she died? I paid that bill when it came on her credit card (was the total balance). No idea why they have refunded. Maybe they figured she was dead quickly and doesn't need the music? I had thought that sucked. She had just gotten those songs and wouldn't have time to enjoy? Hadn't even burned CD copy of them yet, just put them on her ipod. *sigh*

Brother is coming Sunday? He is going to take week off mid-August when I'll be rich and powerful, able to pay for things like carpet!