Meh.

So it's after 7pm and for some reason I'm feeling down. The tree is out, I should still be full of glee. Maybe it was because I had to pay by credit card to have my meds mailed to me and the phone thing says "7-10 days" when I'll run out Friday. They never said what the cost would be either. I tried calling my Brother's place to see if the SIL will be at the clinic or maybe he could take me to pick up my meds but there just isn't reliability there. I could take the bus but that would be $5 and hours of my time. Good reasons to be depressed I guess: Feeling alone and isolated.

The cat has come in to meow at me. I don't like this feeling. I wonder if I could go next door this evening or if I should just hide in bed. Hard to say. *sigh*

I watched Desperate Housewives for the first time in months. ABC is now streaming the show online for free. They run ads though and they're annoying. This one is sponsored by some lame romantic comedy film. When it's time for the break, the ad takes up the whole screen, domes some stupid flash animation (same each time) and plays a trailer. When that goes away then you can click to continue watching the show. It's annoying and I don't think I'll watch more shows that way. Watching didn't perk me up anyway. Maybe because I used to watch it with Mother or maybe because the episode just was that good. Who knows?

It's almost 11pm. Somehow I managed to piss away the hours. I had another meal to see if it would improve my sullen mood but it didn't really. I'm going to bed but first want to put out some trash. I don't know what I'll do tomorrow. Depends on how grumpy I am.