Things Big and Small.

Well I gave up on that browser. Maybe when the first final release comes I'll look at it again. I wish someone could tell me why Alicia Keys' "Falling" was such a big deal. It just came on the radio and it's like wailing cats. Anyone remember that model guy from season 2 or 3 of American Idol who frolicked in the pool instead of practicing during the Hollywood round? Well he was back on TV in Smallville as "Aquaman" last week. Here's a picture. Yes, it's a shameless attempt to get someone to comment.



Congrats to Iraq for 78% approval of your constitution which will be overshadowed in U.S. media by the 2000th American soldier's death in your liberation.

Prison Break is back! I haven't caught up with the episode though. I just had to mention it was back from the baseball-caused break. I didn't feel very good today so I napped on the sofa. I am not sure I've been getting enough calories this week. No much going on for me. Mostly the usual feeling out a direction and wrestling with depressive feelings. Duckie has a birthday in a week! (See, I didn't forget this year. :P)

More detail about what's been on my mind to come in a future post. I just wanted to get something up. 'Been 34 months since father passed. It's ridiculous that I'm not "over it" yet. There are still thoughts that dwell on my mind about what it was like to be a care-giver, what it meant, father-son relationship and such. Maybe I shouldn't fight the thoughts and just accept that it's part of life. I think I fight a lot with life, rather than embrace it. At times I seem almost hostile to living, almost obsessed with streamlining other people's lives and refusal to delibrately act in my own. Wasn't always the case. Something changed. A number of personal failures and I became jaded.

Ugh!! I've got a sudden knot in my back. Where's the cat when I need her to walk all over me? She's watching TV with mother. I need to stretch.